Should I Say from the Start

My name is Ari. I'm student third grade at Senior High School. Today as usual I have been waiting Lani. the girl who I like since 2 and a half years ago. I don't know wahta I am stupid guy who like someone secretly but this me I'm prefer doing something like the way it is. it is almost 7 a.m and I believe that Lani will come after few seconds.
" one, two, three ." my conjecture is never wrong.
someone who haste come into the school.
yes, that is Lani. The girl who I really like. I'm staring at her. her face is very beautiful. she has long hair and smooth eyes that makes me crazy about her.
I tried to give my best smile this morning but it's to akward so I decided don't do it.
" Morning Ari " She said to me while running.
" Mo.. Mo.. morning Lani " I couldn't believe my self. It was the most wonderful moment this morning.
I go and walk into the classs
" plakkk ...." Someone try to slap my head.
" Ari you look very happy, is there anything in your mind?"
 I'm just smiling at him
" Ari, are you sick?" he try to touch my forehead.
"ahhhh.... " I sigh
He is Tommy my best friend ever in my life. He is very kind and know if something makes me very happy this morning that because Lani.
Both of us entering the class after few moments our mathematic teacher Mr. Bambang come. He is the scariest teacher that I have met in my life.
The atmosphere of my class will gonna be changed when he came. After 2 hours finally this lesson finish.
every student feel so happy including me.
" Ri, why you never told her about your feeling?" suddenly Tommy give me that question.
"ahhh.. seriously?" I answer with wrinkle on my face
" come on Ri just answer my qouestion!"
" I don't know Tom, I thought that if I don't ready yet to say what I'm feeling to her."
" I just like to admire he secretly."
" But until when? do you want to hidding your feeling to her forever and how if other guy try to get her?"
I take a deep breath. There is bitterness in my heart when Tommy said that "if other guy try to get her?"
That stattement had been on my mind for the last 4 years after Tommy said that.
Yeah It was 4 years later after I graduated from my Senior High School.
After I graduated. I got the scholarship to continue my my study in German. I graduated from German Techonology Instittute. I come back to Indonesia because there is a company that contract me with good salary. After arrive in Indonesia I meet with my old friend in Senior High School including Tommy. I miis them so much but the one who is very I miss is Lani. I have been told if Lani will come to. We meet at one of restaurant in Jakarta. After we up to do. I saw a beautiful woman come to us. That is Lani the woman who I like since I was in senior high school. She look the same and more beautiful.
" Hai Ari long time not see you?" She said to me
" Pretty well" I said with my litlle ackward
All my friend sneer at me and they say if I never change
Suddenlly I see a guy with a beautiful kids come to her and smiling with us.
I wondering who is he? am I know him?
" Please introduce my husband guys and my child." She smile
My heart was broken when she said that and I'm talking by myself
"Should I say from the start to her if I love her."